there's your problem

I generally discuss my drug problem pretty candidly and nonchalantly--I've never felt that, despite the fact that I have it to begin with, it was causing any serious problems. I don't do it nonstop, I don't do it excessively, and I go very long periods of time without doing it without any trouble. So, yeah, to me my drug problem isn't quite as bad, at least in comparison to the things that made doing drugs sound like an attractive option to me. I tend not to talk about it like it's a huge problem because for the most part I don't think it is one.

Having said that.

This is actually seriously starting to worry me.

I've never had a stellar memory. But lately (within the last two years or so) I've noticed it getting worse. I used to just forget appointments and things, not know the date, forget names. Then I started forgetting things that had happened recently--much more recently than I'd ever had trouble remembering before. Not only am I now forgetting things after just a few minutes, I'm also starting to literally forget things while I'm still thinking of them. It's hard to explain what this feels like but basically what happens is I'll be thinking of something--thinking about a movie or TV show--and then think about things related to that movie or TV show, and in a matter of seconds I can no longer remember the movie or TV show I was thinking about. Sometimes I don't even remember that I was thinking about a TV show or movie. I know I was thinking about something but I can't remember what it was and this happens so swiftly and so frequently (many times a day) that I'm starting to become a bit concerned.

Apparently short-term memory loss is a side-effect of opiate use.

Now I'm starting to wonder what I've gotten myself into...